Nosebleed

It’s official.
I can’t deny it any more.
And god knows how hard I have tried not to like him.
Yes, he is younger than me (ewwww).
He is such a pretty boy (double ewwww).
He is the leader of a boy band (yes, I know).
And, that too, a Korean one (I can see you rolling your eyes).
But he dances so F-I-N-E.
And this is where I stop listening to all my reasons.

*Looks at the picture and goes into a chibi-mode with a bloody nose*

In My Own Way

Just because I don’t love you the way you want me to
Doesn’t mean I don’t love you
I don’t make breakfast for you every morning
Or call you everyday
Or surprise you with flowers
I don’t always say things you want to hear
But sometimes tell you things you don’t want to know
I don’t always put a smile on your face
Or like the same movies as you do
Or laugh at your jokes
Or always pick up the phone
And it's not because I don't want to
Or can't do it
I do want to
But in my own way

I need to keep reminding myself to do this.
Especially with this person and that person.
Wish me luck.

Lovesick

A strange but nice quote from a Korean movie + my weird drawing. Hahaha!

I Love You Too

There is just so much I have to tell you.
A lot has happened and I am not sure where to start.
It has been so long since I have talked to you.
I have all sorts of stories to tell you.
Tales that have made me cringe, giggle, laugh, angry, happy, regret, reminiscence, sigh in relief, struggle…
And I know which ones will win your approval,
And on which ones we will have our differences.
But I know that you will listen to me and understand me.
And at the end of it, you won’t condemn me and love me less but more.
Much more than I deserve.
Much more than I can imagine.
More than I ever was and ever will be.

It's Good to Have Me Back!

I am feeling giddy again. Something that I had not felt in a long time. Actually something that I had suppressed for a long time. People who have known me for a long time are telling me that they are starting to see glimpses of the old Me come back to life. And they happy and rooting for me as I find myself again. I don’t regret my past. Sure, I did a lot of stupid, immature and genuinely naive things, but I have also learnt a lot from them. I know that I have my own issues and faults but I have come a long way and know how to deal with them. I have made peace with a lot of things and now I am really ready to live life for my own sake. Not for anyone else. But on my own terms and conditions. I won’t be held back because others can’t move on. I am moving forward and it is so liberating and euphoric. I am so excited about life. I can feel my form getting back into shape. I am laughing hard. I am meeting so many exciting people. I am getting back in touch with old forgotten friends. I am dancing again. I am accepting more invitations. I am just so much happier. That’s because I can be myself again.